Okay Owners new name is VJ , to fix the confusion. Anyway, we are dating and I am realizing something disturbing about me. I am not self centered… but I am forgetful of other people on occasion. And after a fight between me and VJ it clicked that there are 2 people involved in this thing… very weird, very scary. Anyway… hooking up for me is an act of power, so doing it (btw, hooking up means doing back to a guy’s a place from a bar, not the internet rendezvous). So to give that up is tough… but I have VJ for naked fun, and for the moments after, the movies, dinner, that stuff… but I like being tied up an whipped, I love being chest punched, I like chest punching, I like tying up a guy. Not that VJ and I aren’t kinky together… we are.. but there is a limit of experience. And I require more… so we set up a rule, I will only fuck with him, currently. And I have decided to not hookup with people, I will wait for the hardcore experiences. He will be the center of my mind when I am with him. This is exciting, I really hope I don’t fuck it up. Oh I had work orientation Monday, 13 hour shift tomorrow ugh that’s going to suck (but money is good) who knows how this will go, I am excited for it! I also met a 19 y/o pervert (lives in montreal, college in NYC) online so if we meet up I may finally have someone to bounce my theories off, and maybe end this feeling of being the only young guy into this. off to nap with VJ, then charlies angels
- posted by G @ 1:05 PM